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Sssooo.. What should I write about? *checks into panties* So apparently I'm still trans... despite the fact that these days I'm more in terms with my more ”guyish” side, or if not that then I've at least found out new ways how to cope with myself even without makeup and while wearing these god tier sweatpants that my most amazing gf who definitely did not add this part into the text bought for me.
'Cause is life rly worth living if all I think about 24/7 is my gender and I've become a slave to those thoughts. I think not, I can't rly determine who I am just based on my gender, but even that sucks ass when I'm without makeup for too long and look like some guy with some casual slack clothing. I can't rly escape my transsexuality, even tho I've tried at times, and I can't rly escape the other things I enjoy e.g. shaking my ass like a hooker at some club. In the end it always goes the same fucking way, that when I feel like a sexy meow goddess and I'm at some dance floor all fancy and wearing a porno dress, that is a moment where I feel the best mentally.. You can't escape your soul.
Like wtf can I do about it that I like the fact that when I'm at a bar and ppl glance at me from other tables and ppl keep buying me drinks? Ppl think I'm beautiful and desireable and I just simply like it, I love being a beautiful and an openly sexual shemale in ppl's eyes, but also within my own.
This whole goddamn transition is rly a lot more important for me than I would've liked to admit.. and as long as I am something other than myself, life ain't nice (or if it is, it feels rly shallow), unlike my gf, I would very much like to emphasize that she is very nice. I have some weeeeeird ass interests etc, but those ain't that big of a part of me and my personality. I'd say those are more like ”coping mechanisms”, 'cause transsexuality is shit and no one wants to go through shit on a daily basis.. and if some ppl do, go get help 'cause that is messed up. Trans ppl have been known to have more mental issues compared to your ”regular” folk. Also, I'm not gonna start using some cis terms that every other tranny uses 'cause it's it's somehow fashionable to be so ”correct”. Writings should be the kind that ppl want to keep reading it without getting tired, not everything has to be written so goddamn autistically... or in a way that you just get to boost your intellectualism 'cause you have a goddamn tiny dick, which fortunately I don't have. My dick is huge (I can vouch for that.. BR. gf).
Imma be writing about the effect of hormones, transsexuality and all those introductory thingymabobs to the next posts.
It probably would've been more appropriate to write the introduction to the first post, but yolo, perfectionis ”play-by-book” Venus is gone now. Also, writing a blog sucks dick if everything has to be written and thought out like your life would depend on it.
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2014 we had a channel #Ansat (It's a trap!) and well... guess what?
It's baaaaack!!
While writing this post, the channel has been up for 3 days, but even yesterday we already had 12 online and 21 offline. We have some familiar faces back from 2014 joining back too.
If you like trans ppl, are a trans person (or something equally gay), you know how to take it easy, or you're just otherwise curious and coming out of the closet or whatever Narnia you wanna emerge from, do enter!
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